Man, I am so angry at how damn unfair the world can be.

I spent a miserable 12 months of employment watching my superior constantly flaunt food safety and hygiene rules to the detriment of customers. I anguished over this for months before finally reporting him to management and supplying documentation of his cheating. I hate confrontation, I hate people doing the wrong thing and I hated doing this because he was a popular employee amongst the "in group". He ends up being sacked, never to be employed in the industry again by this company.......the breaches of food safety and hygiene continue with the next superior I have to work with....the stress was immense, the support non-existant this time and in the end I quit, or rather was advised that there was no other choice/option for me. I now find out 6 months on that the creep I "dobbed" has been re-employed by the company..........God knows he's probably doing exactly the same things as before; putting peoples health at risk and the company doesn't care as long as they get their profits and don't have to deal with worriers like me.

If one more person tells me that good people get blessed and bad people get their dues I'll damn well scream. Why is it I struggle so hard to do the right thing....and frickin hell, other mongrels who are absolute cheats and pigs continually come up smelling roses and having happy lives. Why do I constantly believe people when they tell me they appreciate my integrity and the stand I take on things..........it's all crap; no-one really cares about you or your principles other than to use them to manipulate you to their own purpose.
I hate cheats, I hate employers who use me and lie to me, I hate people who do bad wrong things to others, and don't care, and always end up the winner.
Why is life so unfair.......I keep trying so hard to be right and good and it just gets kicked in my face again and again........when is it my turn to be rewarded and appreciated.

Right now at this very moment I hate everything;I mean really, really hate the world; I feel like an absolute piece of crap, I'm tired of being the good one; I just wish I never cared so much about things...I'd be a lot happier now, gainfully employed and have suffered a whole lot less in my life.

Ok, been there three times in my life, and learned my lesson. I do so understand how you feel, as I am feeling the same right now myself. I left my last job, because I was picked on by the head so many times, and in the end was asked in that way of manipulating people "Do you think this job is for you?" . I decided that rather than go down the same road again, I would walk away from the drama. I stuck out my months notice, smiled and was nice to everyone (even those who stabbed me in the back in my absence) and left with a high heart. I hear now that the same is happening again and again, that two more members of staff are leaving, and my close friend - who is ill with bronchitis is being chased by the head and questions are asked about her in her absence, totally unprofessional. There is a part of me that wants to see this woman leave, to get myself involved and do the reporting myself.
And you know what? I'm just beginning to let go of the involvement, let go of the drama of all that, and allow the process to happen. I HAVE to believe that what goes around, comes around and eventually she will get what is coming to her. Dismissal I hope.

Putting things right, being a knight on a white horse, yes I have been there, no I don't like carrying the pain and stress of the involvement, my body won't take it any more, so....I am working on letting it go. Life is not fair...no...and just letting it be is the only answer for me. I would rather be happy than right...these days.

hugs, love and take care..
S

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I guess you're right, you just have to have faith that karma, good or bad comes around to all.

Maybe, on reflection, in the grand scheme of things it was meant to be like this...perhaps in reporting this employee I have saved someone from being ill, and perhaps also given the employee a good wake-up call. Perhaps now, if he is back in the old job he is working more responsibly...has learnt his lesson. And in that, I have been instrumental and I should be happy with that. And, in leaving that job perhaps I am meant to continue my own search for happiness...maybe it was never going to be in that job and the Gods were pointing me in the right direction to take...who knows? I just get tired of trying to find the good in things sometimes. Wears me out!

And then, just maybe this employee didn't really get re-employed by the company; I am only going on hearsay and I wouldn't be at all surprised if there wasn't a bit of truth bending involved.

Either way, you're right, I just need to know when to step away and move on.
Okay, feeling better now.
Thanks